Vagerna Monologue

My belly button is an innie
My vagina is an outie

Maybe if I were to pull really hard, they'd trade.

My vagina is like a caterpillar
And sometimes, it contemplates the cocoon.
And when it breaks out, splaying open
A beautiful butterfly

I just don't know.
Is that what I want?
Is this hesitation?
Gestation?

So many milestones on this journey
This path has destroyed my former self
My flaws have been placed under a microscope
Like a butterfly with its wings pinned back

I have no more personal space.
Everyone wants to know about my vagina.
They want to know if I top.
They want to know if I'm going to keep "it."

Hi, my name is Betty, ask me about my grandkids.
Hi, my name is Joe, ask me about my business.
Hi, my name is Natalie, ask me about my genitals.

GREAT to meet you. Truly.

I just don't know.

Sometimes after a long day of walking, tucked in
Feeling like a fat man with his stomach sucked in
I could really do without

These panties really weren't made for girls like me.
This dress won't be in my size, I've grown to accept it.
I nod knowingly at my sisters in the size 12 isle at Payless shoes.
But truly, my toes have it easier than my vagina.

When she finally gets a moment free from constriction
She needs to get out and stretch
Like a family on a road trip, pulled over at a gas station
The open air, infinitely preferable to that cramped rental

I nod knowingly at my sisters who complain about cramps.

When she's not cramping, or hidden away, sometimes she plays.
I've managed to reconcile with her when she plays with other girls.
But when she's doing what she does, in her manly glory
She sends me mixed signals
I, but, she... we... what the fuck am I doing?
I should be down there.

So yeah, she and I have a confusing relationship.
She brings me tons of unwarranted attention
Plenty of discomfort
She sometimes gets excited, when she really shouldn't
She's not what most men or women look for in a vagina
But she's what I have.
I'm comfortable enough to work with her.
She still feels pleasure.
She still gives pleasure.
She's my little fuck up.
So I call her Princess, because regardless of what kind of vagina she is
She's special to me.